Monday, March 30, 2015

Letting Go

Lately I feel this pressures or tension envelopes mes. As if stress grips my heart with worry.

My devotional reminds me to stop and rest in HIM.

Stop trying to work things out before their times have come. Accept the limitations of living one day at a time. When something comes to your attention, ask ME whether or not it is part of today's agenda. If it isn't, release it into My care and go on about today's duties. When you follow this practice, there will be a beautiful simplicity about your life: a time for everything, and everything in its its time. 

From the devotional Jesus Calling by Sarah Young. March 29

When I let HIM control my days and life then I can fall into His arms of love that will work out all things for HIS glory.

Saturday, March 14, 2015

Reach 600 and a GIVEAWAY

Friday, March 13, 2015

In Sickness, and Health

When we say those vows on our wedding days many of us have on these very optimistic rose-pink hued glasses. Those sicknesses we promise to be faithful through are ones (in our minds) like colds or the flu or some such thing.

But when life gets hard, and our spouse goes through "hell" -whether that be pain or some other chronic illness - are we really as true as we'd like to be?

Since Christmas my husband has been on sick leave for his back. His diagnosis is one that would seem to be incurable and one that you can only learn to curb and live with and keep from progressing.

He decided to return to work Monday- despite the pain since he was sick of being home. But this week has been worse then all those before.

I have never seen my husband so emotionally low, sometimes that frightens me. He- my strong one crumpled up in self-loathing and pain.

We believe, we pray. Yet God doesn't answer the way we hope.Why?

Last night was another sleepless night. He tossed and turned and kept me awake with all that movement. I massaged his back to try to work some of the tension out of his upper back and help him curb the pain. Because pain leads to tension- which leads to more pain- a vicious cycle.

I asked him what else I can do to help him and he said, "Pray."

And so we again went to our Father in prayer. We cried together, we ached together. Perhaps he, because of the intense pain and loss of all hope of living normally. Me, because I felt so weak and incapable of doing anything to ease his great suffering.

Somehow this prayer time was different- perhaps because we were so utterly broken and hopeless. Knowing that God alone was the only one who could bring any relief and sleep to my poor husband. Perhaps, because finally I was truly honest with God in my prayer. Honest to admit that though I have never seen God answer my prayers to heal,  I DO believe HE heals. And perhaps because we were so utterly and totally united in our prayers.

Sleep finally came and though the morning was still painful for my husband somehow this day has been different- easier. My husband came home after a very long work day- I was expecting to see the haggard, pale, tormented "glass-man" (fragile, avoiding hugs and any contact) of yesterday. Yet he looked almost "normal".

Thanks be to our Heavenly Father that though we do not understand His ways or His timing and know not what tomorrow holds- He is in charge and we need only walk by faith. one step at a time.

Sunday, March 8, 2015

A Kind Word

We all walk through dark valleys in our lives- where it seems nothing or very little is going right.

Then all of a sudden a kind word of encouragement, a warm hug or a gentle nod of understanding. Perhaps even shared tears and or a thoughtful note are all it takes to help us through.

This year has started with much trial for our family- yet God has been kind, good and faithful.

Thanks to those of you who have stood by us with a prayer, a note or a word of encouragement. We love and appreciate you!

Sunday, March 1, 2015

Happy March :)

Somehow spring seems to know it has been long awaited here in the far north. The birds have even resumed their chatty tunes and today the first spring flowers were brave enough to peek their heads out for a glimpse of what the world looks like through their leafy bed.

My windowsills are beginning to fill up with seedlings and I have begun to dream again about gardening- a passtime I both love and hate.

March- the color of green- new life- growth and for some St. Patrick's Day.

This fine first day of March I wish you a cheery walk in perhaps sunshine and if not at least with the warmth of a content heart in your chest.

What do you like to add to your wardrobe when spring approaches? For me I add a lighter colored coat, and a brigher scarf. Here are a few of my spring  choices in honor of March 1, enjoy :)

Green Scarf. Fight LYME disease. Spring Scarf. New Life. Spring Green, Perfect Spring Scarf. Gifts for Her.

Aquamarine Scarf - Hand painted Blue Scarf Headcovering . Shades of Blue Scarf . Hand Painted Silk scarf.

Yellow Scarf - Paisley Scarf .  Hand Painted Scarf. Yellow Scarf. Paisley. Hand Painted Silk.